Over the “Hump”

Well I’m over the “hump” in several ways.

First the week is more than half over.  For me that means less than 16 hours of work left for the week!  More importantly, my grandparents are in town!!!  They live 12 (or more with a 2 and 5 year old in the car) away from me.  I miss them like crazy when they aren’t here and obviously I can’t afford and done have the time to just take off when I want to see them.  We don’t normally do anything major when they visit, but we love just sitting around talking, telling stories and playing dominoes.  The girls love it too because they have someone to show off all the new things they’ve learned to.

This also means that I have to figure out something healthy to eat at the greasy spoon diner we go to every Saturday and Sunday morning.  Not going really isn’t an option.  But when it comes to food they don’t have much on the healthy side.  I’m not even sure I can get an egg white omelet.  I’m going to ask though.

Any suggestions on the healthier foods?  I don’t really like oatmeal…

I think I might be over the bloating hump too.  As of this morning I’m back down to my weigh in weight from 2 weeks ago.  I’m feeling much better today.  I did notice what I think part of my problem is too.  First thing in the morning I get up and drink 16 oz of water with my daily pre-workout routine (fat burner, pre-workout and allergy meds).  Then while I’m working out I drink another 16 oz of BCAAs (gotta protect those muscles I’m making).  After that I try to get in another 12 oz of water while I’m getting lunches together.  So that’s 44 oz of “water” in about 2 hours and then most days I have a protein shake while getting dressed.  

I’m also hoping I’m over the hump on the fatigue from lowering my calories so much.  My weights were effected this morning, but I’m not feeling exhausted right now and I’ve only had one cup of coffee and it’s almost 10 am!  Plus I did my cardio last night, even though I was tired before and it felt great!  I’ll be doing it again tonight!!!

So hopefully I can keep the momentum going until next Wednesday and have some good measurements and weigh in. 

Weekly Weigh In {120}

Well this certainly isn’t going to be a cheery edition of Weekly Weigh In Wednesday. Really it’s mostly just my attitude. I mean it’s not like I was expecting a big loss this week or anything.
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I’m frustrated because I can’t seem to get to where I need to be mentally. This shit is hard and you have to have your mind set. I know this and I’ve been doing it for years now! Why can’t I get where I need to be to move passed this! Rather than being down 5 lbs or maintaining where I was a year ago I’m sitting at 5 lbs heavier and wearing the same size (that are feeling a little tighter). I know I’ve made gains in muscle and that is going to increase my weight, but my clothes aren’t fitting any better and they certainly should be considering the muscle gains I’ve made.
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So this week I’m up 1.4 lbs.

I’ve been doing great all week, sticking to my calories and my macros. Then on the weekends most weekends I’m not doing so well.

I’m also having a hard time right now dealing with my lower calories. This is the first time I’ve ever really experienced the strength loss or fatigue due to decreased calories. The weird thing is I have been over hungry or anything. Yes I need to make sure I’m eating kinda on a schedule to keep from getting hungry and wanting to eat everything, but since I’m trying to make sure everything I eat will keep me full I’m doing ok with that. Last night was the first night I felt really hungry and that was just because I was an hour late eating dinner.

I don’t really know where I’m even going with this. I’m frustrated. I’m determined to get to where I want to be, but this path kinda feels like it’s taking me around in circles. Part of me wants to just give up the scale for a while, but I also know that when I do that I tend to eat worse.

I think I want to make the goal to lose 15 lbs (that takes me to “goal” of 155) by January 1st. That gives me 19 weeks. The only real trouble times should be Thanksgiving and Christmas, all the other big celebrations of the year are pretty much over. I do one other party, but I will be taking the kids so I won’t be drinking and that normally means I can do better with food.

Speaking of food, I think I’m going to go back to my clean eating menus and get some of those recipes back into my diet. I’ve been a relaxed on the clean foods as long as it fits in my macros.

How are you doing? Are you frustrated with anything? Do you know what you have to do, but have a hard time doing it?

Motivation vs Determination

Sometimes we need a Motivation Tuesday.  Yesterday I pretty much spent most of the day figuring out macros for a few new meals, making a meal plan and writing out my grocery list.  I figure after a week or 2 I should have enough days that I hit my macros perfectly to just pick 5 and be done with it!  Funny thing is, buy the time I get there I’ll probably be done with this calorie phase and looking to change up my macros again.  Oh well, such is life…

I wouldn’t use the word Motivation to describe what I have right now, I’d go more with the word determination.

The definitions of the two words are quite similar, but I personally associate different feelings and emotions with them.

Motivation: (via dictionary.com)
1. the act or an instance of motivating, or providing with a reason to act in a certain way

Determination: (via dictionary.com)
1. the act of coming to a decision or of fixing or settling a purpose.

For me when I think of motivation, I feel happy, excited, unstopable…

What I’m feeling now is not that.  Right now I’m feeling like this sucks, I’m sick of spending my time planning and working and planning and prepping, did I mention planning?  Just to undo it all with a few meals on the weekend.  I plan my food, I plan my workouts (morning and night), I plan everything around food I feel like.  I kinda hate it.  Mostly I think it’s because when I change my macros sometimes the meals that were working don’t anymore, the first week or two is normally an adjustment.

I feel like I need to do this though.  I will NOT give up because I’m frustrated.  I’m determined to work my way through this.  I have made the decision to make this work even if I’m not motivated to do it.  I’ve made a plan and I’m going to follow it through!

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I started yesterday, when my grandma called and asked if I wanted her to bring me some of her homemade English Muffins and my favorite Macadamia Nut Coconut cookies she makes.  I told her while I wanted to say yes, it was better if I didn’t have the temptation.  Thankfully she’s so supportive that’s exactly why she called to ask before bringing them and she completely understands.

I haven’t planned my food for the weekend yet, I need to figure out how I’m going to handle our breakfasts out at the diner, but for now I’m on my way to cutting some fat and getting closer to where I want to be (Even if I’m not 100% sure where that is, I’m closer than yesterday).

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Flashback Friday – Impatient and Unmotivated

Well, let me start with saying that I’ve been off all week.  I’ve been nauseous, had hot flashes, been super exhausted and bloated beyond belief.

Monday and Tuesday I blamed it on the activities of the weekend.  Between not being as young as I used to be and not drinking even half as often as I used to, my body just doesn’t recover very quickly from a 3/4 of a bottle of rum.  Here we are on Friday though and I’m feeling no better than I was on Monday.  Well maybe a little better spiritually just because well, it’s Friday and Hubby and I will be kid free for 2 nights and celebrating our anniversary.  Anyway, back to the point.  I feel like crap.  Starting Monday I got back on my 1485 calories, 50% protein, 30% carbs and 20% fat.  I made sure I was taking my multivitamin again too.

I think the nausea was partly due to only taking my vitamin with a protein shake and when I was letting myself get hungry.  The hot flashes are mostly coming with the nausea.  So yesterday I was going to start taking my multi with my before bed snack, yup, totally forgot.

Anyway on top of that I’ve been bloated all week!  As in can’t wear clothes I was wearing last week because they are uncomfortable.  Normally after a week of healthy eating and drinking my gallon of water a day I’d be done with the bloating.  Instead I feel like its getting worse and it just makes me feel crappy.  When I feel crappy I don’t feel like exercising which makes me feel even crappier.

To add to that, I’ve been exhausted all week.  As in head bobbing at my desk at 9:30 am, yesterday and today I’ve even had second cups of coffee, which I don’t normally do because coffee doesn’t do too much for me.    I’m the type of girl that can drink half a pot an hour before bed and still go to sleep.

Once again, back to topic, I was so tired last night I decided to skip my optional cardio.  It was later than normal and I was just tired.  So I went to the bedroom and guess what, couldn’t fall asleep.  There’s a lot to be said for cardio before bed.

All this turned into me not being motivated one bit to do leg day this morning.  Today was the first day in a long time that I woke up trying to think of a good excuse not to do it.  Which really that’s all they are, excuses.  So, I put on my big girl pants and put the work in.  I have a feeling I’m going to really feel it come tomorrow when I’m on the golf course!  

Today was a big one for me, I was over 100# on all my lifts!  Unfortunately I was more excited about this last week after I realized how much I’d be lifting this week, than I am today.  

I think part of my tiredness might be attributed to the lower carbs so my plan for next week is to switch to 45/35/20 and see how I feel then.

I just want to get this bloating under control!!!  I keep telling myself to be patient, the results will come, but when you’re wearing your “fat” jeans and they are tight it’s kinda hard to believe that!  I’m determined though.  After this weekend I’m aiming for perfect eating!  I will have to figure out a diner breakfast for 2 weekends probably, but I can do this!  I know I can and my self-esteem needs it!  

So I’ll leave you this afternoon with an anniversary edition of #FlashbackFriday  On Sunday Hubby and I will be celebrating our 7th anniversary.  We’ve had our ups and down and he’s been there through my journey to my heaviest weight and back again.  I love you babe!

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Weekly Weigh-In {119} – TLS Week 7

Sometimes the Weekly Weigh In Wednesdays seem way to close together and other times I wish they’d come faster cause I know it’s going to be good!

Weigh In Wednesday

This week I really wasn’t sure what to expect.  I did great last week until it got to Thursday and Friday nights, and well we’ll just not even talk about how my weekend should affect my weight.

Monday I was actually feeling pretty good considering how bloated and uncomfortable I was Sunday night.  I was so uncomfortable I didn’t even want to eat the apple slices I had planned for my snack.

Well then yesterday morning rolled around.  Before I even left for work I was feeling bloated and uncomfortable.  By the end of the day I was so uncomfortable that I had unbuttoned my pants!  First thing I did when I got home, put on a pair of sweats.  Really I would have thought it was that time of the month, but it’s not, not for at least another week!

I decided to do the 45 minute Turbo Jam for cardio last night even though I really wasn’t into it.  I needed that burn and when I was done, I was happy I did it.

This morning I woke up feeling good.  Not bloated or anything.  I stepped on the scale with no expectations at all…

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Not bad I don’t think.  Less than half a pound up, I’ll take it!  Hopefully me staying on point with my new macros this week will mean that I can lose that half pound this week even though I know my weekend won’t be great.  I have high hopes I know.

Yesterday I was considering skipping my measurements today since you shouldn’t take them when bloated, but since I was feeling better this morning I decided to go for it.

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I wouldn’t say I’m the measurements are great, but I’m ok with them.  Mostly because my % body fat dropped from 33.2% down to 30.9% even though I only dropped a 1/4″ in the last 2 weeks and only about a 1/2 lb.  I was not surprised at all to see that my hip measurement was up 1/2″.  It was very apparent in my comfort level yesterday.

Getting dressed this morning was even more frustrating though!  I couldn’t find any pants that didn’t feel tight.  I was even going to wear my skinny jeans with a dressy top (I haven’t worn jeans to work in over a month), but even those looked and felt horrible!

So in the end I’m happy.  Progress is progress, no matter how small it is.  Hopefully I can figure out what’s making me so bloated.  I have a few theories, but we’ll see what changes will make me feel better!

Head on over to see Ash, Erin and Heather! for the Weigh In Wednesday Link UP!

Motivation Monday – Learn from It

Wow, Motivation Monday already? I had a blast this weekend, first time pretty much all summer that I didn’t have the kids and was able to drink and not have to worry about what they were doing and who was driving and all those things that go with being an adult and a mom. It couldn’t have come at a better time either. Things pretty much blew up at work on Friday. Let’s just say that it was bad enough that my boss who was planning take this week off is here.

I’ve pretty much been meaning to post this since friday, but since I ended up so busy it just didn’t get typed up.

On Wednesday I talked about how I was going to change up my macros in a few weeks after my planned bad weekends. Then on Thursday I posted about how it was stupid to wait until the weekends were over to change my macros. The sooner you start, the sooner you see results! So starting Thursday I was trying to modify what I already had planned to eat so that it fit my new macros.

Things were going great until I got home and I was starving. I still had to cook dinner, but I was so hungry, even a little weak feeling. So what do I do, reach for the easiest thing. A pretzel rod and some almond butter. Then came some cool whip and cheesecake and a crap ton of other junk that I can’t remember anymore.

What I hated most was that before I even took that first bite I knew what was coming. I tried so hard to fight the urge, but I was so hungry. All I wanted was something “heavy” in my stomach, if that makes sense. In other words yogurt or fruit or anything like that just wasn’t going to cut it.

We have all see the motivational quote “It’s not about how many times you fall, it’s about how many times you get back up…” or another variation that just means so what if you make a mistake, you need to keep going and not give up.

Well, I have something to add to that. When you get back up, bring something with you. Yes, the most important thing is to get back up, no doubt, but the more you can learn from what caused you to fall, the better off you will be in the future.

Last week I learned that I can’t just have yogurt for my afternoon snack, it just doesn’t stay with me long enough to get through my drive home and making dinner. From now on it will quest bars. They keep me feeling full longer.

I also decided to pick up some extra fruit this week. Since I’m trying to keep my carbs lower I don’t normally eat too much plain fruit. I’ve decided though if by chance the Quest bars don’t keep me full long enough that I would rather have some fruit in the fridge to snack on and go over on carbs by a little rather than fat filled foods like last week.

It’s not fool proof, I’m sure I will end up tripping over the same rock, but at least now I have less of chance since I’m watching out for it.

The rest of the weekend wasn’t all that great with eating healthy food, but I’m ok with that. I’m not feeling as bloated as I thought I was going today and as uncomfotable as I was last night, that’s an amazing thing!

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#ThrowbackThursday – Why Wait?

Do you ever look back at old pictures and wonder how the hell you thought you looked good?

I went looking for some throwback Thursday pictures and it just blew my mind!

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I remember feeling great that night. I was so excited that dress “fit” I was probably back down to 195 or so, but when I bought that dress I was lore like 175 and it just fit. Thank God for control tops!

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And then there’s this one… I really don’t know what to say. About this one except I wore that out to the bar and I’m pretty sure NO-ONE hit on me!

It really makes me appreciate this…

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Who knows maybe in a year or two I’ll look back at this one and think the same thing.

Speaking of thinking the same thing…

After posting yesterday I decided to use my lunch hour to look into aggressive cutting macros and recalculated mine. I said in yesterday’s post that I was going to start an aggressive cutting phase in two weeks.

Well I thinking, I always here people say “I’ll start Monday” or “starting the 1st…” I was using the same mentality that I’m constantly trying to get people away from. Why wait 2 weeks, when I can start now? You can make a healthy choice with every decision you make, why wait until a certain day or date?

So I’m not. Yes, I already have my food planned but I’m just cutting back, so a little less here and there and it will give me extra food for next week! Hello save a little 💵💰!

Based on my calculations yesterday, from muscleforlife.com, an aggressive 25% deficit puts me at 1485 calories. Since I know I’m sensitive to carbs I’m going to start with 50P/30C/20F ratio. In 4 weeks I’ll see where I’m at.

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Weekly Weigh-In {118} – Trust The Process

Yesterday I was going to start writing this post.  I was pretty excited for today’s Weekly Weigh-In Wednesday.  I’ve been good for a week and half now.  Best weekend I’ve had in quite a while.

Weigh In Wednesday

This morning I woke up feeling bloated and disappointed after seeing the scale.  I won’t lie that I couldn’t really remember what it said last week, but I was definitely expecting a lower number today.

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I need to take my own advice though and be happy with a loss.  A 1 lb loss isn’t bad, especially if I can keep it going.  My problem is, I have been in this horrible cycle for 38 weeks now!  I reached my goal weight after 79 weeks of hard work, a year and a half.  I only stayed there for 2 weeks though!  I hovered around 160 for a good 20 weeks and I was ok with that, but now I’m up to hovering around 165+ and I’m not ok with that.

There are only 7 weeks left of the #ShreddedSummer challenge and I really want to be down to my lowest weight by the time it ends, unfortunately, the next 2 weekends are the only 2 weekends I have had planned to drink all summer.  I’m trying to plan how I’m going finish this challenge and still enjoy those two weekends.  I will definitely be using those 2 days as my re-feed days, although they won’t be on plan, I’m going to try to keep my eating the same and the alcohol will be my additional carbs, and then some!

Starting the 18th I think I may try a dramatic cut in my calories for a few weeks, down to about 1300 (right now I’m eating at a deficit around 1500).  I might ask for some advice on this as I don’t want to be slowing my metabolism too much.  Then after the challenge is over I will start a bulking phase to get my calories back up there before doing another cut.

One thing I do know is that I need to Trust The Process.  This is really hard, but it’s true.  You don’t see progress every week on every measurement, even if you were perfect.  Not at the stage I’m at and I need to remember that.  I need to trust that what I am doing is getting me closer to my goals, no matter how ambiguous they are.  I mean really 155 lbs, that’s just a number I thought I would look good at, I’d be happy at, my baby pooch would be gone at.  Well if it was 155 lbs at say 20-25% body fat, it might be gone, but I don’t know because I’m not there.  When I get there, I’ll let you know.

I need to remember that just because the numbers on the scale aren’t moving like I want, I am sitter here typing this today in size M clothes from American Eagle and Forever 21.  Yesterday I wore a size M Hollister zipper and 8 dress (the lining was a little tight, but didn’t show cause of the flowing dress).  2 years ago that 8 had a 1 in front of it!

I am a better person today, esthetically, physically and mentally.  The only thing that will keep me from reaching my “goal” is me!

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Motivation Monday

Good morning and welcome to another edition of Motivation Monday!  

Did that sound enthusiastic? It was meant to.  I’m feeling a little sleepy today, but it is Monday after all.  How did you do this weekend?  Did you have a plan?  More importantly, did you stick to your plan???

Overall I’d probably give myself a B.  I did much better than I do on most weekends, but I wasn’t perfect like I wanted to be.  I have a few nasty little habits I need to break.  Like finishing up food that the girls don’t eat and sneaking a bite of this or that.  Really the bites lately have just been to keep the cravings down.  Sometimes it works and others it doesn’t.

Friday night went pretty well, although I do think I consumed way more popcorn than I had planned, I did stick to my plan for dinner and my other snacks.  I even had a protein shake while waiting for the movie to start.  (Movies: Guardians of the Galaxy wasn’t really my cup of tea, although there was some good humor in it.  S Tape was pretty funny, unfortunately I kept getting distracted by Laney Lou screaming out from the trunk where we made them a bed to sleep.  She really has trouble sleeping on anything but her own bed, overall, worth the drive and $25 we spent).

Saturday plans changed of course, but I made sure to pack my lunch and snacks, even dinner just in case we ended up staying longer than planned.  Which of course was a good thing because we did end up staying for dinner.  what I didn’t plan on was stopping at the mall on my way home.  That called for a Venti Skinny Caffe Mocha from Starbucks.  I was exhausted because I didn’t get home from the movies until 1:30a and I was up again at 6 to get my cardio in.  A little crazy? Yes.  Worth it?  Definitely!  I also changed my before bed snack and had some Arctic zero with Maple Almond butter and a few mini Chips Ahoy instead of my cookie dough protein powder with enjoy life chips.

Sunday was my rough snacking day.  For my main meals I stuck to my plan, I didn’t want to on most accounts, but I did.  It was mostly the bites of the girls food that got me.  2 cheese puffs while getting a snack for the girls. A bite of grilled cheese when I cleared their lunch plates, finishing Laney’s meat loaf piece when I cleared her dinner plate.  (Speaking of meat loaf, if your kids insist they don’t like it, but eat meatballs, tell them it’s fun square meatballs and I bet they eat it up.  My girls did!)

Then came the before bed snack again.  While I think the Cookie Dough Casein is ok, it’s not one of my favorites, but its what I have so that’s what I have planned before bed every night.  Last night though I realized the 2 cheese cake pieces were going to go bad in the fridge.  So I had a few bites, not even half the piece, then I saw the cool whip.  Sooo I had an amazing idea, I mixed it with my casein!  This would have been a great idea if only a half cup had been enough, unfortunately cool whilp doesn’t stay very whippy when you are mixing it with casein so I ended up using twice as much as I had though.

In the end I was over on fat and carbs, but I can honestly say I haven’t felt this good waking up on a Monday in a long time!

Did you have a good weekend?  Did you blow it with eating this weekend?  How are you getting back on track today?
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I’ve Got a Plan!

I can’t thank everyone enough for all the kind words, advice and encouragement I’ve gotten over the last week!  It really means a lot to me and lets me know that what I do is worth the time and effort I put in.  I know that I may got without posting for a week once in a while and that I don’t have the most motivating posts some times, but it’s reality and you have all shown me that my willingness to be open and honest helps not only you, but me too.

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So with that said, it’s Friday, we’re heading into the weekend, not an overly busy one for me (Thank God!), but that doesn’t mean it isn’t going to be tough, they are always tough for me.  I think not being on a schedule is the hardest part, and I’ve gotten out of the habit of setting my alarm to get my workout in on Saturdays before the girls get up.

I’m going to try and change all that this weekend and I’m sharing it here in hopes that it will motivate me to be able to post on Motivational Monday that I had a great food and fitness weekend!

I’m counting today as the start to my weekend since we have plans tonight.  I’m lucky enough this week to only be working a half day today (Thank you shop floor workers!).   I already did leg day this morning!  Check my Instagram to see how I did (I think I finally got over my mental block!)  My plan is to go for my interval run when I get out of work at noon, then it’s off to the grocery store to get the stuff for next week!  I seem to be doing well with this planning 2 days and eating them every other day all week.  Then the next week I switch it up if I’m getting bored.  Plus that way Hubby and the girls aren’t eating the same boring thing all week!

Our only weekend plan is to take the girls to the drive in movies tonight.   2 movies for 4 people for $20, can’t beat that around here!

Anyway, movie popcorn is a downfall of mine.  So even though my meal plan today is not idea (3 protein shakes, eggs, yogurt, Quest Bar, chicken for dinner) I’m making that popcorn fit into my macros!

I don’t have my meal plan completely done, but I’m planning tomorrow as my refeed day so I can have some protein packed French Toast for breakfast after my work out, which I plan on setting my alarm for tonight!

Sunday will be back to my normally scheduled meal, but I will break my regular post workout meal up into my other meals.  I do this for 2 reasons, 1 – I’m not working out so I don’t want to overload with carbs in one meal, 2 – I sleep in since I’m not working out and won’t even be up to eat at that time!

Right now I’m feeling good and motivated about this weekend, I haven’t felt that way in a long time and I think that makes me feel even better!

Tell me what you are doing to stay on track this weekend and we can keep each other accountable!

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